Truth be told, Elise didn’t even really like him. That’s not to say she wasn’t already wet when she got off at his subway stop and climbed the familiar stairs into the lingering evening sun. She hadn’t been to his apartment in weeks. She hadn’t walked through the dirty streets of his neighborhood, next to the big school with the high metal fence and the little stores with the weird religious candles and the exotic smells.
All right, maybe she liked him in some weird way. He could be a good friend, in his own fashion, if he wanted to, but he was so very full of himself sometimes, so very Mark. They had dated for a while around two years ago, and maybe they were even in love for a couple of minutes, but Mark was an ass and that all disintegrated quickly. He was a much better fuck than he ever was a boyfriend.
Mark could be a good listener too, when he was in the mood. If he got interested in what you were saying and thought your little problem was entertaining he could set his mind to solving it. He was an egomaniac, but sometimes that gave him the detachment to give you really insightful advice. Also, he was outstanding in bed.
Sometimes you want to fuck someone you’re not in love with. It’s good to have someone like that who you can trust. And then there was the fact that Mark always had a way of making things dirty. Elise craved that sometimes. More than craved it, she needed it. As she walked down his block, she knew that this was one of those times.
It was hard to ask someone new for those things. When you are falling for someone, and you want everything to be perfect, and so you can’t have the awkward conversations about how you needed to be held down or spanked or called a slut or more.
Mark knew all her boundaries, though. He read her like a book and said out loud all the dirty things that were in her head and made her blush. He made her blush! Elise was always the bold one, the brash one, but Mark could make her feel like a veritable prude sometimes. And as much of an asshole as he was, he never crossed her lines. He knew just from looking in her eyes what she needed and what was too much. That kind of connection could take years to create, and there was no reason to waste it just because they couldn’t make a relationship work.
The truth was, she had met someone the day before. The truth was, every time she thought about this new guy she melted a little and her knees almost gave, and her heart started pounding. This guy was serious, though, no one night stand. This guy was amazing.
Elise swooned as she pictured him. He was tall and handsome and so very gentlemanly. He worked for some kind of not-for-profit organization, he recycled, he was a genuinely nice person. He had good skin and a crooked smile and used big words and had a nice ass.
Her stomach dropped. There were things she needed though and she wasn’t sure someone so “nice” could give them to her. She thought about Mark, who certainly wasn’t a bad person. Mark who drank too much and make crude jokes about horrible tragedies. Mark who admitted to a somewhat criminal youth. There was also Mark with the bookshelf full of interesting things and his world-traveling past, and there was the fact that his cockiness was all bullshit and he was actually very humble about how smart he really was.
She thought about the last time she saw Mark, his hand in her hair, his body on hers. There was something that pushed the moments in his apartment to hyperreality. The way he half-closed his red curtains which made the light from the street glow crimson on his white walls.
Halfway to Mark’s apartment Elise’s phone vibrated. Pulling it out of her bag, her heart was beating hard. It was like being in high school again.
“It was cool meeting you. I’m kind of really excited about our date,” said the text message.
Elise stopped walking and let out a happy little noise. Then she looked around quickly to make sure no one heard her. Swooning she looked up to see Mark’s building, an old brownstone with a sort of ominous array of little angels and demons carved into the staircase and windowsills.
She texted back from Mark’s hallway. “I’m pretty excited too. Can’t wait. See you soon.”
She rang his bell twice without an answer. She knew he was home because he had buzzed her up. When he opened the door she saw his familiar face a bit stubbly, his graying hair a bit messy, the piercing blue eyes never focusing on her entirely. He nodded hello to her, “give me like five minutes, okay?”
Elise stood confused at the door as he quickly walked back into the apartment and picked up a book on his big leather chair and started reading something intensely. She came in, looking around a little confused. The apartment was cool, with a fan in the window and the evening air flowing in. It was tidy but cramped with stuff. Books, computer parts, a couple of leather floggers peeking out from under the Sunday Times.
Walking around the room, she saw things she remembered. There had been three months when she was sleeping over every night. The salad days when she learned how badly he snored and how decadent his breakfasts were. She smiled at the little box of Peruvian Worry Dolls he’d told her the secrets of one summer night.
She jumped when she heard the thump of a book closing. Turning around she saw Mark get up from the couch and stretch.
“Okay. Sorry, I was in the middle of this… intense chapter.”
She shrugged, he was already smiling at her with that predatory smile.
He used to play this game where he made her admit why she came. He made her tell him that she needed to be beaten and fucked. That got old a while ago, but sometimes he just watched her. He watched her until she squirmed.
She fingered her phone, wondering if he would text her back, wanting to check, wanting to know more and tell him more. Mark eyed her, she was extra nervous, and she knew he could tell.
Mark walked over, and she backed up until she was against his bookshelf. He laughed, “I’m just saying hello.” She looked up with her big eyes. He had good lips, soft and expressive. He kissed her on the cheek, and she tensed, unsure of what he was doing. Mark always changed the game, never wanted her the same way twice.
“I like it when you’re nervous,” he whispered, already husky-voiced.
“You’re an asshole.” But she couldn’t look up at him.
“You should take off your pants.”
She shook her head, “no.”
He pushed and pulled her, like a child getting out of her winter jacket. He pulled off her shoes and socks. He roughly unzipped her pants and pulled them down, bending her over and pulling each leg off.
When he was done she steadied herself on his bookshelf, her hair in her eyes and her legs looking extra naked with her only in a shirt. She didn’t wear underwear with jeans, Mark was never really sure why. Her cunt was bare, Mark could tell it was freshly shorn from the slight redness and complete smoothness.
He grabbed her arms and just moved her around. Shaking her a little and pushing her here and there like a rag doll. He liked how docile she got when she was like this; when she wanted to be hurt and controlled. So different than the Elise on the street. He pushed her over to his bed and slapped her ass once.
She growled, feminine but feral, when hit. The first time Mark hit her he had been a little surprised. It was lovely though, the way her bright eyes and smart mouth just vanished. This brilliant girl rendered dumb by nothing more than pulled hair and a spanked bottom.
She crawled up onto the bed and got on her knees in his sheets, her butt in the air, her chest against the bed, face buried in the blanket, trying to hide her red face and open mouth. The red lips of her cunt peeked out from between her closed legs in the way that made him aggressive. In the silence between smacks, the room was suddenly filled with the dull echo of a phone vibrating.
Mark watched as Elise’s head shot up. She was breathing hard and fast. She looked back at him and then to her handbag.
“Oh, I get why you are so nervous. It’s a boy, isn’t it? Is that him?”
She whined and buried her head in the blanket.
“What’s his name? Is he dreamy?” he mockingly fainted.
“I hate you so much. You’re such an asshole,” she said, as she crawled away from him, trying to reach her phone.
Mark let her get up, then stood and looked down at her as she laid on the floor pulling out the Blackberry and reading the new message.
“Fuck off.” She rolled her eyes and bit her lip as the little device blinked to life.
The first blow came to her ass, then it was followed by five more. He was on her, straddling her legs as he grabbed her hair and pushed her face against the floor.
“Tell me what it says.”
Her heart was pounding against her chest and against the hardwood floor. His weight on her legs and ass made her pubic bone press into the floor, and she could feel the grain of the wood on her bare mound.
“It’s private,” she wanted to yell it, but it came out a choked little whisper.
She wanted to tell him this was too personal, this wasn’t part of their game, but her sex throbbed at the intrusion and she knew he loved it.
His fingers snaked into her hair, closed on it and pulled. Elise let out a high whine as she pulled up the text.
“Ow! Wait, okay!” she paused — this was something different, there was a weird line that she couldn’t put her finger on. Mark’s hand tightened in her hair.
“I really…” she swallowed, her throat felt like it was closing — “enjoyed kissing you that night. Hopefully I…” his hand tensed in her hair, she felt individual strands being pulled out. “Hopefully we’ll get to do more of that next time.”
Mark’s laugh was a slow rumble. She could feel it on the back of his legs, the slight vibration of his body as he chuckled. Her face was hot, and her hands were sweaty.
“Is he a nice boy? Is he going to bring you flowers?”
Elise tried to squirm away. “Shut up.”
Mark took her wrists and pulled her arms behind her back. In his struggle, his hardening cock pushed between her legs, not inside of her but rubbing, poised. She tensed.
“Is he gonna be your boyfriend?” Mark stretched out the word like a playground chiding.
He leaned down and whispered into her ear. “Are you gonna wait until the third date to put out? Why buy the cow when you can get the milk free, right? Are you going to marry him?”
“Shut up, shut up.”
It was stupid. He was making little kid jokes. It was such ridiculous teasing, but she felt cold in her chest. Her eyes were itching, maybe even wet. She whined, she shook her head, but he kept talking.